Some thoughts tonight...

"Rend your hearts and not your garments... for He is gracious and compassionate, slow to anger, and abounding in love."

"Oh that you would rend the heavens."

"No more tears, no more pain; we will see you face to face."

"Ah! happy day they whose hearts can break
And peace of pardon win!"

"He will wipe every tear from their eyes. There will be no more death or mourning or crying or pain, for the old order of things has passed away."

"In this world you will have many trouble, but take heart! for I have overcome the world."

"Earth's crammed with heaven,
And every common bush afire with God:
But only he who sees, takes off his shoes,
The rest sit round it, and pluck blackberries"



Hmmm, nothing new has happened. There has been a lot of death lately in my non-immediate circle, and so all these words have been in my head a lot. In all honesty, I don't know what to do with them, I just can't stop thinking about them. How does one keep from plucking blackberries?

Racism... *deep sigh*

What's worth living for? What's worth dying for? Easy living or easy dying. They look the same. I don't wanna run full force towards nothing. On the other side of the same coin, I don't wanna coast through anything. Glide through life and into death? No thank you. Beat against the wind through life... and still into death? Hmmm, why would I do that? Big questions. I can't say I have a full answer for any of it right now. I have enough of an answer, though, that I'm not scared to ask the question. Why are we here?

Common question: "What's your major?"
Less common question: "Why?"

Often the answer would be:
A: "That's my major so I can get a good job."
Q: "Why do you need a good job?"
A: "To have money for food and a house and stuff." (Inwardly... "Duh")
Q: "Why do you need that stuff?"
A: "To stay alive."
Q: "Why do you need to stay alive?"

Please don't misunderstand... I'm not trying to devalue life. On the contrary, I believe our lives are invaluable... irreplaceable... not one person was an accident and neither is there life. The human race was not an accident. I want to elevate our lives by clarifying their meaning. Why are we here? You can't ask a higher question of life. Because that question says "My life is not worth wasting. What am I here for? I want to know so I can do it!"

Even noble causes: Feeding homeless people; abolishing racism, nationalism, sexism, and the like; world peace; saving the environment; bettering our communities through parks and trash cans; educating yourself;... et cetera, et cetera, et cetera. All of these things are lovely things... even, dare I say it, great things. But why do them? Feed a homeless man so he can... stay alive? Why should he want to stay alive? Get rid of racism (or sexism, or nationalism, or class systems) why? So the under dogs in those groups can live better lives? Why? What's a better life? Why take your kids to a nice park? So they can have fun? Why? So they will grow up better? Why? There has to be a reason!

Find the answer. Don't waste your life.









P.S. I thought I was going to voice my thoughts about racism... something else came up.